Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Sometimes You must Wait for inspiration : Future Life Plans/ Goals

For some reason, I woke up today not wanting to talk to anyone. As I was brushing my teeth, washing my face, and getting dressed for the day, I realized that I was feeling a sense of introversion wash over me. Before I left my room, I was trying to figure out why I woke up feeling this way but as I walked my normal route to class, my reasons for wanting to be introverted didn't matter too much anymore. Today on campus this group who is for "Pro-Life" had this thing where whoever is participating wears tape over their mouth for the entire day with the words "Life" on it. I had planned on doing it but since I have horrible sleep patterns and time management for my life, I forgot. So I guess my silence is in conjunction with what the group on campus is doing but I'm more so Pro-Choice than anything else.

I've noticed something very interesting in the last year or so about myself that is a little creepy, alarming and eye-opening. As I have gotten older, I've become more like my father. Let me see if I can paint you a picture of how my dad is. First thing first, if you were to shave off all of my hair then there is my dad right there. I think I look more like my dad now than my mom but most people would never agree because they always see my mom. My dad meditates, mindfully eats his food, and is into holistic health. It's funny because when I was growing up, when I would go spend time with him we were always going to health food stores that had all "healthy" food and supplements ( a huge difference from Wal-Mart). I used to think it was gross and diguisting and I missed the comfort of my home with my mom. Ironically, now I'm taking Holistic Health Psychology and I enjoy it very much.

I made some pretty drastic changes in my life which all started in my freshman year of college. I became obsessed and sought out all the information I could get about natural hair and made up my mind freshman year that I did not want a perm anymore ever in life. When people ask me how long have I been natural ,I always say "Unofficially 3 years (had to get my mind right and do research) and officially 8 months." I also became more than irritated with my acne. Freshman year is when I decided to stop using Clean & Clear and seek out alternative (natural) cures. I'm not even close to being done with research on that but what I found is it's not just what you put on your skin, it's what you put inside your body. There was a lot of trial and error but I want to holistically cure my acne. I want to say I tried everything in the book but I know I would be exaggerating to the max but, it felt like I did everything under the sun. I had to learn about washing, toning and moisturizing for myself so that I could treat the skin on my face better than I did in the past.

As I've mentioned in previous post, I am in college at the University of West Georgia to be exact. I love this school. I'm a Psychology major and I love the program here. I think if I went to another college I wouldn't even be a Psychology major because most psychology programs in the U.S. don't have the Humanistic approach like UWG does. I love the sense of community that the Psych department has about it. I'm appreciative of everyone who made UWG's Psych department the way it is today. There are so many things that I would love to do with my degree. The first thing I want to do and plan on doing and achieving is becoming a high school counselor. I'm a people person (contrary to what some people think of me) and I have so much advice in my brain and in my heart that I can't wait to share with the generation of high school children I will be counseling. But when thinking about the next step in my education, which is Grad School, I get a little down in the dumps. My mom is in Grad School so of course she's going to be an advocate for it, especially for me (her child). In this world, in this country, and in this economy, a high school diploma nor a bachelor's degree will cut it when it comes to getting a job. The next level or highest level is what separates you from the person with just a High School Diploma. I agree with what I just said but there are people out here homeless and been unemployed for 2+ years that have Master's degrees and Ph.Ds. Whenever she starts talking about Grad School, I listen but I always have a but. I'm trying to figure out why. I can't become a high school counselor without getting a higher education. Maybe my imagination has painted a picture about me in grad school and being bored or too intimidated.

The other thing I want to do is become a massage therapist/acupressurist/ reflexology therapist. I believe in holistic health and the power of it's healing. I try not to pop pills for headaches, menstrual cramps, or any other pain that I may feel. I believe in God and I believe he gave us everything we need in order to live a healthy life. If I get a headache, I either take a nap, eat, try to calm myself down with  breathing exercises. It never really hit me that I've always been interested in massage therapy until this year. I've been giving people massages ever since I was young, around the age of 7. I remember for my mom's birthday one year, I made her a massage gift certificate and gave her a massage because during those times she was very stressed. One summer, my cousins and I made a game of massaging each other and we paid each other a penny. I just realized that whenever I personally feel tense in class, I give my shoulders a nice rub down (yes in class and yes with clothes on). I give people massages for fun and pure enjoyment and most of them give me positive feedback about how it feels. With all of this history of me and massages I feel like it's something I seriously want to become certified for. I'm very interested in acupressure (acupuncture without the needles) and reflexology but my mom is still pushing this Grad School thing. I understand her reasoning though. I'm 21 now so I need to come up with a definite plan for my life.