Hit the Nail on the Head

DEAR EX,

You missed out on a good thing…

FUCK THAT.

You missed out on a GREAT thing. I’m glad you thought moving onto another would make you forget about me. I’m glad you thought the person you’re with now could even compare to && replace me. What you fail to realize is there’s no replacing me. No one could make you happy the way I did. Yea, you may find someone that can put a smile on your face, make you have a good laugh every now && then, but remember…I did that with NO effort. I never ‘tried’ to make you happy, it came natural. Those times we shared && conversations we had are missed, I admit. But me being hurt made me want to forget about everything. I wish it was that simple, but it’s not. I think about you all the time, ALL the time. There was a phase in my life where I was like, “Fuck Love!” but I’m over that now. You had power over me that stopped me from moving on, but that power is gone. So, I’m moving on && I’ma love way harder, way stronger && the next person that will have the privilege of being with me will be happy && in pure bliss.

Sincerely,

Something Great 

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realism vs. optimism

I guess my main thing is that I dont think I can picture you loving anyone else other than me but I'll keep working on my realism because I know it will happen someday.

Something didnt feel right

How have I been dealing with the break up? Ive been flooding myself with watching TV shows online. I figure if I dont keep myself busy I'll keep crying like somebody died and it's only a break up. So I've been watching girlfriends, the game, big love, and movies. I guess it helps. Once every episode is watched and thought about and every movie on my list is scratched off, the only way I stay away from the tears is going to sleep. The day of the break up and the day after it happened I cried my eyes and all the snot out of my nose. I dont think I can produce anymore tears that will be equivalent to my confused feelings about how someone that loves you gives up. But every time I think about what and how it happened, a stream forms at my bottom eye lid. All of these questions I've already asked him and he's already gave me answers to, I want a different answer. How is an hour too far to travel to see the person you love? So you basically didnt love me enough to want to travel and see me to make it work? I'm not rich at all. I dont have a car. I wonder how different the relationship would have been if I had a car or if I didnt go to college. It was so hopeful on new years eve and I believe that's why I'm so upset and disappointed. New Years Eve, meant a new year and finally this new year we were going to try everything to make it work. I feel like he exhausted the possibilities of it working because he had already gone and made up his mind without letting me suggest anything. I feel like he gave up on me... even though he said he didnt give up on me... he just gave up on the situation. But the way I'm feeling... I am  the equivalent to the situation. Me and the situation ( no Jersey Shore )  are same and he gave up on me. And the cherry on top is that he says he isnt coming back! But you know what, I cant help but listen to my gut feeling and my gut feeling  doesnt agree not one bit. I was thinking maybe my gut feeling doesnt agree because I dont want to face the truth but I just dont believe that and I believe he made a big mistake on a huge impulse. But I guess just because a person is the love of your life, you guys have to be together. As you can gather from these scattered thoughts, I'm still fresh and raw and confused but in due time I will have come up with a plan to living with the fact that he doesnt want to be with me for the simple fact that the distance from him and me from my school is an hour and he just doesnt want to drive, which means to me that he doesnt care about me.

I just wanna pull out all my hair (sometimes)

Distance relationships suck! Now that I've got that out of my system, what I really mean is distance relationships take a lot of work that requires dedication, perseverance, and four large laundry loads of hope and faith. I love giving out relationship advice but when it comes to my own I never consider giving myself advice because I know how I feel about my love and i feel as if it wouldn't be th type of advice I need to hear. I'v been having an issue with keeping a positive mind when it comes to my relationship. I'm sometimes pessimistic to the fullest and the optimistic but expecting the worst to come sooner than later which is not really being optimistic at all.

"Let's talk about Relationships" Series: Being an individual while being in a relationship

Regardless of the romantic movies, tv shows, and your ideal relationship in your head, having SPACE away from your significant other is very important. When I say SPACE I mean having your own individual life away from you relationship. I have noticed that a lot couples around my age seem to distance themselves from their friends, family, and pretty much their own identity when getting into a new relationship.

But I havent seen a change

Relationships, relationships, relationships. Before you were in a relationship with your significant who were you? Have you lost yourself in this "oh so perfect relationship" you're in? Or are you one of those people that complain about what your partner is not doing up to your standard. If you have a certain standard and he/she isnt living up to it then you should let them go because you are only waisting his/her and your own time. 

This is directed to the females. You say he isnt a man and he needs to grow up and stop acting like a little kid. What is a man to you? Explain that to him so that he can have an uunderstand or some type of idea. But I thought when you are in a relationship that you are supposed to take the person as they are and not try to mold them into what yo want them to be. If you are trying to do that then it speaks highly about the type of person you are and what type of man/guy you are looking for. And stop looking for his old habits to die fast. Old habits die hard and slow. Its a slow death and if you arent willing to stay around  for the long run then leave. Did youu ever take the time to look at yourself and all the things you could work on your damn self. At a certain age, we expect men to be grown and handle their lives and be ready to seriously be mature. People are going to do what they want to do. If they dont want to take the steps in order to be mature and grow into a better person then honestly there is nothing you can do. But if he is trying, who are you to knock him down when he is already on the ground. Change takes time. You nor him can change that fact.