I hate how I do this to myself every time I like someone. Expectations. That's one of my biggest problems that I need to work on. It's always difficult to get back into the "dating" game especially if you've been out of it for so long. But i definitely need to just go with the flow and stop trying to control what happens next. If nothing happens I'll be upset because I'll feel like I wasted my time even being interested but there is a lesson in everything that goes on in life. I'm a relationship person which is kind of one of my biggest down falls. I do enjoy being single but once someone shows interest and I show interest back, I start to think about how we would be together. Creepy right? I know. I'm so glad I can be honest with myself. I never fully enjoy being in the moment of that moment. My imagination always has to run wild and come up with these mini- movies. I don't be going out looking for anybody though, it just only happens when it is a mutual interest and it's shown. I'm aware that things aren't going to be this way forever, but even though I know that fact it doesn't make me feel any better. It feels like things aren't moving at all and I'm just stuck in one place all confused. But seriously what is there to be confused or stressing out about? How ironic is it that I don't think there should be anything to be confused or stressed about but I'm venting?
I'm having to re-learn that if someone isn't showing you the attention you want and deserve then let them be. They could be busy, ignoring you, having family issues, blah blah blah but who ever considers you important will show you. Point blank. Maybe if I stop listening to people like The O'Jays, Jodeci, Al Green and start listening to Rocko and Lil B then I could deal "better" when it came to someone I liked. But then I'd be in the group right along with the "heartless" girls who believe in their hearts that they think like dudes.
I give so much advice to other people just because I have a caring heart and I love to see people in healthy, happy relationships but when it comes to me and my personal intimate relationships, I never take my own advice. Ever. That's sad. I know I'm not the only one that does this to themselves. I need to start taking my own advice. ASAP.
I'm having to re-learn that if someone isn't showing you the attention you want and deserve then let them be. They could be busy, ignoring you, having family issues, blah blah blah but who ever considers you important will show you. Point blank. Maybe if I stop listening to people like The O'Jays, Jodeci, Al Green and start listening to Rocko and Lil B then I could deal "better" when it came to someone I liked. But then I'd be in the group right along with the "heartless" girls who believe in their hearts that they think like dudes.
I give so much advice to other people just because I have a caring heart and I love to see people in healthy, happy relationships but when it comes to me and my personal intimate relationships, I never take my own advice. Ever. That's sad. I know I'm not the only one that does this to themselves. I need to start taking my own advice. ASAP.
