Thursday, December 29, 2011

See you later, honey.

I really don't even know where to start. We were so young when we met at that party. I wasn't even going to talk to you, let alone dance with you but sometimes it just takes a push and a shove to get things started. We fell in love so fast all thanks to T-Pain's "Buy You a Drank". I was so in love with that song because of you. From that party on it was like we were connected at the hip. Always together when I was at my friend's house, always on the phone throughout the day, Myspace messages, voice mails, and text messages. Everyday after school, I went on your Myspace page just to look at your pics and listen to the "love" songs you dedicated to me on your page. I will never associate Gyptian's "Beautiful Lady" with anyone else but you. The day you met my mom was when she decided in her mind that she wanted you to be with me always and forever, so of course you already know she was devastated when we broke up. You ate that dinner up and drank three glasses of her tea like it was going out of style. I thought that day was how it was going to be forever for us, but of course things happen to change our expectations and plans for how our lives are going to go.  Who could forget that trip all of us took to Six Flags. That day just felt like a slice of perfection. We were all on each other and neither one of us wanted to be separated from each other no longer than 5 minutes. Oh, and the night we had our first kiss! I'll never forget, we were watching Saw and it was the end of the movie and it just seemed like our lips just melted together. Like our lips had an understanding that they were going to met very soon.  I'm so glad I got to apologize and we had a relationship even after what happened and us not being together anymore, although it took us some time to get there. But I'm so glad we did.  When you're young, you do dumb things without thinking about how it will affect the people who care about us and vice versa.

I'm going to miss being able to come home, go to the Macy's in the Mall of GA, text you to see if you are working (which you more than likely would have been) and stopping by with my mom so I could see your face. I will always cherish the last time I saw you, which was at work. You looked so dapper and suave, like you needed to be in the Macy's catalog. The only thing I regret not doing was talking to you after I saw you because that was the last time we spoke. It never crossed my mind that in a few weeks you would never call me drunk or high, letting me know how much you loved us together and how much you still care about me, never make plans to hangout with you that would never go through, never get to reminisce about why we broke up and how stupid I was, or nothing. It didn't cross my mind that someone I dated was going to die at the age of 21. Of course people die everyday, young old and middle-aged all the same but I never thought it would be you. You were the sweetest, unselfish, caring person I have ever known let alone dated. I'm glad and proud to have known you in my life. I'm also grateful that even though I did hurt you, that you forgave me and still treated me with respect. I know I'm definitely not the only one hurting, shocked, or sad by your sudden death but I also know I'm not the only one who can smile and say that you were always smiling that beautiful big smile and the sweetest. Mom always thought you were the one for me and I always disagreed with her not matter how sweet and good you were to me, and I guess now I know why. I have accepted that you are no longer on this earth but I know it'll take me a little while to adjust to the reality.

Death is inevitable. It is the only thing guaranteed to us when we are born. Time does heal all wounds and life will go on but you will always have a special place in my heart every time I see, hear, think, dream about Jamacia or Jamacians, Gyptian and the song "Buy You a Drank".

I Love You, See You Later,
R.I.P. Glendon Marlon Jones 

4 comments:

  1. I am so sorry for your loss. i lost my brother this year to a severe illness and i know what it's like to feel like you never had the chance to say goodbye and tell them all the things you wanted to say. Your ex is in a better place though. He is in a place where he feels no pain, no sadness, no anger, he is eternally happy. And I can guarantee that he is constantly around you, even if you don't know it. His spirit will always follow you and be there to guide you. When a death happens to someone you are close to, it's hard to rationalize and think clearly about the situation when all you can think about is how sad you are that they are not here. I will keep your spirit in my prayers and always remember that weeping only endures for a night, and that true joy comes in the morning.

    Sarah Jane R.
    www.sarahjanerstyle.com

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  2. @Sarah Jane - Thank you so much for your kind words. I will continue to remember them whenever I feel sad or can't think clearly because I miss him. & I'm sorry for your loss as well.

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  3. Oh wow that was so beautifully written and said..
    I am really sorry for your lost.

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